The Moon, Ch. 6

**A/N: Blame for the lateness of this chapter rests entirely upon the fact that nothing felt…right. Finally it dawned on me what the problem between them really was…Eric is tired of being a lapdog.**

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Momentarily lost in Sookie’s radiant gaze, slowly Eric shook his head to clear away the glee of knowing that she’d dreamt of him during their unfortunate separation.  But…

Suddenly, it all came crashing down. Carefully schooling his face into neutrality, he stared back at her as he thought.

She wasn’t here for him.

She wasn’t here because she had chosen him, or because she had missed him.

She was only in his sphere because, yet again, she had been treated poorly by some male she had, once again, chosen over him.  Except for when he had traveled for business, he had been in Shreveport this entire time.  At any point she could have come to him, called him…hell, at any point during these last long, interminable years, she could have…  But during all that time, he had heard nothing from her.

Nothing.

He could feel his heart, that raw, inflamed non-beating organ in his chest, hardening at the realization. As much as he loved her, as much as he needed her to be alive and well and in his arms, he couldn’t allow her any closer.

His heart’s sanity couldn’t take yet another rejection…couldn’t take being passed over for someone, anyone, yet again.

And with her track record, it was all but inevitable.

He had never been enough for her. No matter his history, his power, his wealth, his abilities…no matter that he had been willing to risk his own existence for her time and time again…he had never been enough for her before, so why would he be now?

Slowly the joy dimmed from Sookie’s bright and shining gaze as she realized that Eric wasn’t quite as thrilled to see her as she had been to see him.

As much as it hurt seeing that light fade from her eyes, he knew it had to be done. He simply could not risk being her lapdog yet again. He would help her, he would support her and her impending child, and he would delve into the problems caused by yet another man she had chosen over him – of course he would. He loved her and always would.

She just didn’t need to know that.

Not wanting to be cruel or too cold to the pregnant telepath now ungainly trying to sit up on the side of the bed, he kept his voice cool even though he was livid over the bruising still painfully evident on her face.

“Are you well? I can have Dr. Ludwig here in a matter of minutes if you need her assistance.” He kept his hands firmly clasp across his stomach as he resisted the almost overwhelming urge to reach for her…to help her…to draw her into his lap and heal her injuries and never let her go.

Eyes now suspiciously wet – a sight that immediately drove him from his chair to stare out the window since he never could stand the sight of her tears – Sookie replied quietly, her voice shaking slightly, “I’m ok. Sore, but I’m ok.”

An awkward silence followed during which Eric found his own hands shaking as he crammed them into his pockets. Finally he heard a grunt and a huff and, via the window’s reflection, he saw her rising slowly from the bedside.

“I’ll be…back,” she murmured, her head lowered and her shoulders slumped as she ambled toward the bathroom.

His face frozen while he was cursing, fuming, and screaming inside, Eric grit his teeth as he forced his gaze up from the floor where it had fallen upon seeing the defeated posture of the woman he loved. He railed at himself for being the one to cause such  dejection, but knew he had to stand tall and hold his ground.

She was an addiction…an addiction who had not chosen him…an addiction he had to steel himself against or risk losing everything this time around.

A little while later after apparently having gathered herself together, Sookie emerged from the bathroom looking a little better, although the redness around her eyes tore at him. Instead of returning to the bed, she headed toward the bedroom door.

“I’m going to get something to drink, and I need to eat, too,” was all she said before leaving the room.

Eric nodded his head, then withdrew his phone. After turning the ringer back on, he checked his messages, and found one from the lead investigator.

After listening to the message and returning the call, he went to the kitchen and found Sookie sitting at the formerly unused kitchen table while Willa cooked something on the stove.

The sight of his youngest Child cooking caused him to blurt out, “You can cook?”

Willa, all too aware of the tension between her Maker and her friend with the reddened eyes, decided to try to relieve some of the awkwardness.

“Yep, and I can dance and sing, too,” she quipped as she turned the eggs in one pan and the bacon in the other.

Appreciating her attempt to lighten the stifling atmosphere, Eric and Sookie both gave a short obligatory laugh…which was followed by a weighted silence.

Soon enough Willa slid the plate of bacon, eggs, and toast over to Sookie, who began to eat more out of habit than any actual hunger. Eric’s cool attitude had been a big surprise, but then, she realized that she really shouldn’t have been surprised. It’d been how long since she’d last seen him?

She hoped that he didn’t think he had to take care of her, that he felt obligated to do anything. This was her mess and, with Willa’s help, she was determined to deal with it herself.  She needed to see about finding a lawyer, but at least she didn’t have to worry about finding a divorce attorney.

Suddenly queasy, she shoved the plate away and reached for her juice. At Willa’s raised brows – the vampire knew how much she generally ate at a sitting – she just shook her head and rubbed the side of her stomach which was moving as the baby kicked.

Noting every minute movement in their byplay, Eric correctly determined that Sookie normally ate more than she just had, and correctly assumed that recent events had affected her appetite. Perhaps he should contact the doctor anyway…the damages to her face were irritating the everloving fuck out of him.

Willa saw Eric trying not to stare at Sookie, the longing in his eyes very badly hidden; she saw the way Sookie was trying not to stare at Eric, her own longing also very badly hidden, and snorted to herself at the way their gaze would flee from the other’s when they would accidentally meet.

This would never do – and she wasn’t a Southern Belle who knew quite a bit about vampires for nothin’. Hiding a crafty look behind concerned innocence as she peered into the blonde’s abused face, she spoke sweetly.

“Sookie, that lip still looks painful and your eye is far too swollen to be comfortable. You know vampire blood heals, right? Would you take some of mine so you can…”

“No!” Eric’s voice thundered throughout the apartment and he stood so quickly that his chair dented the kitchen wall where it hit. He could stop neither the growl nor the dropping of his fangs as he instinctively leaned toward Willa.

Regardless of self-preservation, emotional sanity, or any form of pride, the blood of no other vampire would sing in his Sookie’s veins.

Sookie was his.

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**A/N:  Can y’all see where he’s coming from, why he’s not wanting to become more emotionally involved with Sookie…even if he’s not going to let another vampire – even his Child – give her their blood?  😀  Thoughts?**

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74 thoughts on “The Moon, Ch. 6

  1. Eric’s reaction is very understandable and I hate him feeling this way. I can’t wait until the next chapter and Sookie and Willa’s reactions. Great chapter even if it did leave me a little sad for Eric.

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  3. suzyq591suzy: *whew* I was hoping the fact that his heart just couldn’t take another hit from her would shine through. He loves her, always will, but… And they will work it out in the end – I’m too much of a die-hard shipper for them not to! 😀 Thanks for reading!

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  4. Well I understand why Eric is doing this! Sookie took him for granted so many times that I lost count! Remember she always goes to Eric for comfort especially when another man ( Bill) does something he shouldn’t have done? But I loved his reaction to Willa ! I’m anxious for more please update soon…Take care

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  5. It takes two to tango. they both made mistakes, but I can understand Eric’s reasoning. But I do wonder how Sookie will take him pulling away and the. Pulling the vampire thing of mine on her…..

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  6. Yep. Smart move, Willa. She knew exactly how Eric would react. Now if the two twits would just have an honest talk.

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  7. Absolutely, she needs to make it right. Where does she think Willa’s help comes from? Willa told her that eric sent her. He’s been hurt because Sookie is cold and unsympathetic to the one who’s loves her the most.

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  8. Sookie has a big hill to climb if she wants to be in Eric’s life in ANY capacity. He is going to be distant for awhile and she has no one but herself to blame. Very curious how he will explain his reaction to Willa offering to heal her. Love this!

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  9. Poor Eric. I can understand that he wants to protect his heart, but I am frustrated that he curses Bill’s blood on one hand, but on the other hand can’t seem to understand or forgive Sookie for falling prey to it. Of COURSE she chose Bill. He was pumping her full of his damn blood every 5 minutes and MAKING her choose him. In my mind that’s akin to rape and Eric SHOULD understand that.

    But his pain and hurt at not being chosen clouded his judgement and he walked away. He’s right, she COULD have come to him after, but he could have gone to her too, understanding that she chose Bill because she practically HAD to thanks to his filthy blood. He could have made it clear that he still loved her and would be there if she got her head on straight now that Bill’s blood wasn’t influencing her anymore. Instead, I’m sure she thought Eric was done with her and, clearly, settled for the soon-to-be-dead-Steve because she assumed she could no longer have Eric.

    Ugh. It’s all such a mess. Thanks frigging TB.

    Oh well, Willa to the rescue! It looks like she’ll sort them out!
    Next chapter please!!! 😉

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  10. carletticlaudio2014jackie69: Exactly, she really did take him for granted, which would have been ok if she hadn’t kept choosing someone else over him.
    And on a completely related note, I’d love to be able tot take Eric for granted… *sigh* 😀

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  11. Kittyinaz: I think Sookie’s in for a bit of a wake-up call and that she’s going to have to work a little harder to ‘get’ him this time around, but then, there are also things that Eric doesn’t know about that, when he discovers them, his poor old frosty heart will thaw… 😀

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  12. nicoleraslich: Actually, Eric didn’t send Willa in my story – he did in my friend Gyllene’s awesome story “Black Friday”, but in mine Willa is friends with Sookie all on her own. She knows there’s history between her Maker and Sookie, and is somewhat keeping an eye on her out of respect for Eric, but Eric isn’t responsible for it. Willa’s loneliness and genuine friendship with Sookie is. And stay tuned – something just might come out in the next chapter that will help thaw Eric’s heart more than maybe he’d like… *evil grin* Thanks for reading! 😀

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  13. missingjasamalways: You’re absolutely right – Sookie is going to have to do something she’s never done before – actually (kind of) work for Eric’s emotional trust this time around. He loves her – he always will, but until something pops up to give him an excuse to be able to show her his softer side again (something that may pop up in the next chapter…), he’s going to be feeling a bit less trusting… Thank you! 😀

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  14. switbo: YES!!! Every single thing you said is absolutely right! As smart as Eric is, and he’s brilliant in his own way, even he falls prey to self-protecting perspective. But…there’s possibly something coming up in the next chapter that will give him the reason/excuse he’s so desperately seeking so that he can be ok with showing Sookie that softer side of himself. 😀 (And I’m still kicking the TB Collective in the balls for this mess…)

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  15. Great update and quite honestly – good for Eric to not just go into doormat mode. As much as I ship this two, in the context of the fuckery TB delivered, esp. the way Sookie behaved like a fool most of the time and systematically rejecting Eric for a bunch of losers or worse, I can almost accept that Eric might just walk away. So I am all for Sookie having to do some serious grovelling regardless of Willa’s sweet intervention there…

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  16. I loved it!!! I agree that Eric the 1,000 yr old Viking vampire is going to be feeling hesitant to put himself out there for her, again, only to be passed over, again!!! I think you showed the right combination of determination and need, he is both determined to not fall into the same dysfunctional pattern with her, all while needing her desperately. He loves her, and wants so badly to have her feel the same way this time!!! I can’t wait for you to give me more of this fun and brilliant new story!!!!! More please!!!!

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  17. redjane12: As much as I wanted him to automatically fall into that old role, it just couldn’t happen, not really. When you do the same things over and over while expecting different results, there’s a problem…and Eric’s a smart old guy, he knows this. But…something may happen in the next chapter that lets him open up more…we’ll just have to see… With how Sookie kept choosing everyone under the sun – especially Bill – over Eric, I kind of did view their final scene in TB as Eric, well, growing a pair and walking away. Why keep chasing a lost cause no matter how much he loved it? I can’t wait for a certain action to come to light which might help level that playing field some, though. Thanks for reading! 😀

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  18. missrissa81: Exactly!!! He needs her, but he needs even more for things to be fair, and for his efforts and love to be returned, not taken for granted then tossed aside for yet another “someone who isn’t him”. Bluntly, I love the idea of Eric emotionally “growing a pair” and putting his needs, well, if not first, at least giving them the same importance that he’s been giving Sookie’s needs and wants. But…next chapter…things may improve… Thank you for the lovely comments! 😀

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  19. I think Eric is somewhat justified in his current attitude toward Sookie – BUT – I guess I’m going to play Devil’s advocate… Sookie isn’t completely at fault here. Eric shares some of the blame. These two have the worst communication skills since Romeo & Juliet, and they’re supernatural beings! Eric has been protecting Sookie for 4 years – through Willa – not on his own. Since when has Eric Northman ever taken “no” for an answer? If the answer is only from Sookie, then WTF? That’s not on her; it’s all on him. Sookie’s faults have already been pointed out so I’m not going to go back over them. Willa could have told Eric of her concerns for Sookie at any time, or she could have spoken with Sookie about where she believed Sookie’s true feelings lay. Ain’t nobody talkin’ here! Eric’s also had the same 4 years to go to Sookie & confront her with his feelings. It takes two people to be in a relationship. In this particular instance, Sookie didn’t come running to him, did she? He came to her. Isn’t Eric getting a bit ahead? Now he’s gone and pulled the “Mine” vampire shit that Sookie hates, right after having treated her as if she was something stuck to his shoe. Uh, mixed signals, anyone? See where I’m going with this? Eric is just as guilty at playing mind games and after 1,000 years, he’s much more advanced than Sookie! They are both novices at relationship roulette though. Yes, they love one another and they’re childish and ridiculous in their behavior. They both share in the blame & dysfunction. Lock them in a room together & don’t let out until they come to their senses or Sookie goes into labor! 🙂

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  20. msbuffy: ***snicker*** See how I showed their entire romantic history in a mirror? ***double snicker*** I have been so tempted to just superglue their collective asses together in a room and MAKE them talk…humm…sensing a one-shot if I ever get time here… Seriously, though, they both in their own ways really do need to, basically, grow the fuck up emotionally. 😀

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  21. I just found this story and I love it. I don’t begrudge Eric wanting to hold back. Too many times Sookie chose others over him. I wonder if she just wanted to ‘have her cake and eat it too’. Eric was and is the one constant in her supernatural life and I believe she’s just too complacent whit him. IMO.

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  22. Yes you did! Aggravating little buggers, aren’t they? If there was ever a fictional couple that belonged together, it’s these two. Perhaps they should just resort to writing notes and having Willa pass them back & forth? In nearly every incarnation where it’s derived from canon, these two aggravate the shit out of me! Love the idea of a one-shot… My mind wanders… I’ll happily beta for whatever you might need! Truly, you said it much more succinctly. I should have just written that! 🙂 (Next time, will just write “Grow the fuck up emotionally…)

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  23. Eric is right in feeling how he does –just how many times do you have to be kicked to the curb? Well, maybe they can both turn over a new leaf and COMMUNICATE!
    Pat

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  24. td4bz2: Hi – welcome aboard!! Glad you found me! 😀 I think part of Sookie’s problem was that she never really had to “work” to get Eric, so it was easy in a way for her to take him for granted. Thanks for reading!

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  25. msbuffy: Lol, that’s exactly why I had them writing letters to each other in Valentine’s Night! LOL – I’m a Taurus: blunt is my fall-back! 😀 And thank you for the offer! 😀

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  26. fairytaleamber: Thanks gorgeous! I’m so glad I was able to get “his point” across. I can’t see him ever being mean to Sookie, but I can totally understand being more guarded emotionally around her flighty ass. But the next chapter may help some… 😀 Go Willa!! 😀

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  27. duckbutt60: Thank you – and I don’t blame him a bit. Things will change very quickly, though, since I’m the Anti-Angst and refuse to drawn out the drama for chapters upon chapters upon chapters, so there’s no worry, lol – all will be well soon enough, starting with the next chapter if it lets me write it the way it’s going in my head so far. 😀

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  28. You’re welcome! I’m a Virgo; blunt & direct works every time. The notes in Valentine’s Night were excellent though, and a lovely way for them to reconnect! These two with Willa as go-between are reminding me of junior high school kids! Argh! It speaks highly of your writing though that they frustrate me so much. If I didn’t love the story or your characters, I probably wouldn’t want to butt their silly fictional heads together! LOL! 🙂

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  29. msbuffy: I know, and I’m giggling madly, too! 😀 I can just SEE Willa getting tired of it all, rolling her eyes, then banging their heads together. 😀 😀

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  30. Oi. Willa has her work cut out for her. She has two stubborn, prideful blockheads to try and knock some sense into. The blood offer was a good start lol.

    I get why Eric is guarding himself. And I agree too. She rejected him how many times? Yet she had expected him to go to her when Bill died?

    Yep, lots of work ahead of Willa!

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  31. I’m just imagining a Supernatural friends intervention for Sookie and Eric and then the locking in the room part. No way out, enough True Blood and food to wait them out, no other distractions and nowhere else to go. Maybe it would work?
    Anyway loved the chapter and I can see your point about Eric feeling like her lap-dog and wanting to hold back in case he gets hurt again, but it’s time they both had an honest-to-God talk. Geez, for two “grown ups” they can really act like children sometimes.
    Clever Willa! I think with her help, maybe these two will finally get their act together 😛

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  32. askarsgirl: I’m so glad that so many readers are seeing where I’m coming from with Eric’s thoughts. Granted that particular drama won’t last forever (or even very long, lol), but I wanted to show his perspective. Thanks for leaving such great reviews! ❤

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  33. ericluver: It is! Ugh – so many times I’ve wanted to lock them in a room and just lose the key till they get it all figured out! But, starting w/ the next chapter, things will begin (quickly) easing up for them…and we won’t even need a locked room or superglue! 😀 I’ve loving Willa in this story, btw… 😀

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  34. ashmo2000: He’s so in love with her, and so torn by that love and “knowing” that she “wouldn’t choose him” (going by past history) that he’s not thinking entirely straight, but…it’ll all be ok sooner than later (I hate angst…) 😀

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  35. I get what Eric’s feeling. You can only be “looked over” so many times before you finally decide you’ve had enough, especially if you care enough for it to hurt you. Granted Sookie doesn’t mean to hurt him, but she does all the same. They really need to talk to each other instead of at each other.

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  36. lzdiva4: Exactly!!! And in some part of his heart he’s got to know that she wouldn’t hurt him on purpose, but still… Things should even out here soon… 😉 Thanks for reading!

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  37. It is always MY pleasure to read… And yes, it will be lovely to read something that may redeem Sookie’s character after TB… I’ve always blamed that writer and the TB writers for what they did to her character rather than Sookie herself…

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  38. redjane12: Aww, thanks! And I’ve always thought that the TB set lived far too far up The Twit’s ass to ever let Eric and Sookie have a real chance…and we know The Twit had a serious phobia against an E/S HEA…

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  39. Am I the only one who wants to know what the investigator said? I am proud of Eric for holding his ground, for the most part, and I love Willa’s little move to get Eric to show his true reaction to anyone else touching/feeding HIS Sookie. Well written! Loving it!

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  40. kinnik7104: Thanks you, and…heh, nope, not the only one… All shall soon know… (Did that sound mysterious enough?? I tried!) 😀

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  42. So I had to play catch up, awesome updates for an awesome story……I don’t blame Eric for trying to guard his heart against Sookie. He has laid it on the line for her far too many times for her to just crush it in the end every time. I honestly wouldn’t mind seeing Sookie sweat it out just a little. Is that cruel of me? Probably yes, but after everything she has put him through n everything he has done for her, I would say she deserves it a little. I mean she can’t expect him to just fall at feet every time she gets into trouble n has a little boo boo. What did the investigator say? Loving smart n crafty Willa.

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  43. eaaustin85: I don’t think it’s cruel at all. Granted this time around she didn’t go to him specifically for help, Willa did (because she’s smart, he’s her Maker, and she KNOWS that something had transpired between them in the past), but still. How much can his old heart be expected to take? But then again, he’s always going love her (because it’s a B fanfic, dammit!) so…I don’t see him holding out for long…maybe just long enough for HER to FINALLY open her ears and let some truth in, and open her pie hole and let some truth escape! 😀

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  44. ericluver: *glances at floor…at ceiling…at wall…at another wall…at desk…at puppy…back at desk…at yet another wall…out the window…* 😀 It shouldn’t be too much longer! 😀

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  45. Oh I like Willa, clever girl! A very worthy child for Eric! As for Eric and Sookie – funny how alike like their personality traits are. Both so proud and stubborn and neither wanting to lose face by acting first. Gyllene: thankfully someone keeps feeding our unhealthy attachments to Eric lol.

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  46. anem72: Willa is turning out to be awesome in this story! At first she was just a plot device, but now that I’m “getting to know her”, she’s turning out to be a great character all in her own right (write?). And take that back! There’s nothing unhealthy in our obsessive obsession with Eric! NOTHING!! 😉

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  47. Wha a la eeee ….! Possessive much? I LOVE it lol. Eric can’t hide his feelings now! Can’t wait to read Sookie’s reaction… oh and I hope they both realize soon that they love each other! Great chapter.

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  48. loved how sneaky Willa was about the way she offered her blood to Sookie, the reaction from Eric is what i had expected. even though they are trying to stay away from each other, their relationship is a force of nature and it will not be stopped by anything. KY

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  49. kleannhouse: Willa is awesome! Eric didn’t Turn just any old débutante… 😀 And exactly – there’s no way those two stubborn kids could stay apart! Glad you liked it!

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  50. Lateness there was only my lateness to this awesome party…so no A/N apologies you write when you write cause when you do it is AMAZING!! And lapdog Eric is never a good one. Eric up first…take charge but be able to listen and get to the real problems. Communicate. No no Eric no hard hearts here…please…I will give her the intelligence injector if you will stop to listen. I don’t think she knows a quarter of the things that you have done for her Eric. Show her. Ugh secrets never win you anything except heartache. Is this more angst…Karen you promised. Another perfect sentence that sums up his thinking to this point. “She was an addiction…an addiction who had not chosen him…an addiction he had to steel himself against or risk losing everything this time around.” *that’s it! No one hurts Eric…grabbing the Injector again comer here Sookie I have something to help with those swollen feet* Have you ever been that 3rd person in a room like that you describe it perfectly! AWKWARD! LMAO..Sookie was his…but he is leery of taking her again…how many times has she tossed him aside for some other jerk. *mentally counting what 4 or 5?*

    Off to the next chapter!

    Enjoy~
    Robin

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  51. I really enjoyed this chapter. I think sookie was pretty awful to Eric, and I never felt like she got what she asked for. I know that sounds horrible, and I don’t mean a pregnant woman deserves to be abused, I just mean in general.

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  52. hjr949806: Ahhh, bless her heart, but yeah, in so many ways Sookie was horrible to Eric. I don’t even like trying to remember them…ugh. But yeah, I know what you mean…but just keep reading………….. *evil grin*

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  53. Fair enough that Eric doesn’t want to be a door-mat. Good on Willa though for seeing through their behaviour and very neatly manipulating the situation. I think Sookie deserves to be a bit on the outer given she chose Scumbeehl over Eric. Fair is fair, after all. Wonder if Eric will end up giving Sookie his blood?

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  54. smoke&ember: While I say I don’t write angst, just “emotionally suspenseful drama”, I can go a bit, um, well…angsty. (Beware if you’re a TB Pam-fan…)

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