Sookie Takes Charge, Ch. 10

**A/N: Caution: Beware the slight chance of mutual growth in this short but emotionally happenin’ chapter. Tissues not required.**

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Still reeling from the emotional maelstrom with Eric, Sookie walked slowly toward the back door after popping her basket into her vehicle. When she entered the old farmhouse, she cast another jaundiced eye around the place. Naturally everything was the same as it had been the last time she was there, but for some reason she’d found herself hoping that things might – somehow – be a little different, that maybe this time when she stepped through the door it’d feel more like the home she had once considered it.

It wasn’t…and it didn’t.

She rolled her eyes at herself and decided that after almost being vampire lunch, not to mention all that had come afterward, it was no wonder her brain was acting weird.

Of course nothing was different. This was just the old, slightly less run-down house where her beloved grandmother had begrudgingly raised her and her brother so that her holier-than-thou church cronies wouldn’t think badly of her.

She ought to know – she’d read the thoughts straight from the woman’s brain often enough. Funny how often darling Adele had chosen to forget that her own granddaughter could do that sort of thing.

Resolutely Sookie ended that line of thought. There was no reason to keep hanging on to the same bitter old notions, and she’d had enough negativity in her life.

And then there was Eric.

The too-recent memory of him in her arms surprisingly made her own tears rise once again. She tried to convince herself that her current tears didn’t mean anything, that she also cried over “save the animals” commercials, but it didn’t work.

Oddly, however, she felt slightly vindicated. In the past she had in some way simply known that there was much more to him than met the eye, that he was much deeper emotionally than he wanted the world to know. But, her thoughts continued, he had destroyed every bit of affection or good opinion she’d had of him when he’d…

Sookie forced herself to stop thinking so strongly about all he had done to her during the Russell situation. She certainly couldn’t forgive him for it, but that didn’t mean she had to dwell on it, either.

Naturally unbidden memories of how he had been before then came to mind instead.

Sure he could be a coldly calculating monster who used her without her permission, but he was also the rascally frat-boy who had conned her into taking his blood the night of the bombing, the same confusing male who had made a point to include releasing her along with his beloved Maker in exchange for himself in that fake church. And while he could be the scary asshole she’d seen on other occasions, he could have a great sense of humor,  and yeah, he seemed to have a brilliant and devious brain hiding behind those gorgeous blue eyes of his, too.

Except for pleading for his Maker’s life both in the fake church and on that rooftop in Dallas, all those other aspects of his personality hid the fact that he was capable of feeling deep, intense loyalty and adoration. Well, toward his Maker at least.

While the idea that Eric could be that intensely loving made her feel a little odd inside, she was glad to know that at least she wasn’t a fool – there really was more to him than met the eye. As she had suspected, Eric truly was capable of extremely powerful emotions above and beyond the scary, painful, and infuriating characteristics she now associated with him.

She would have to think more about this later.

Maybe.

And why had he been there waiting on her in the first place?

 

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Eric approached the door to her, well, his house, and almost snorted at himself for automatically pausing instead of simply opening the door and entering.

After all, no matter how useless the ownership was to him now, it was still his house. He would have to return it to her as soon as possible.

He felt a bit of shame rise up at the mostly nefarious intentions behind his purchase of her mortgage in the first place. He’d meant to use the house against her if he felt he “had” to, and back then his conscious had only felt the barest of twinges when he’d been forming his plans.

No wonder she couldn’t stand him any longer. He didn’t like himself all that much, either.

Now, he decided, was his perfect opportunity to begin making amends.

He knocked on the door that he now technically but not morally owned, and waited for an invitation.

A moment later he heard her quietly invite, “Come in.”

When he entered the living room, he saw her standing behind the hideous couch that had been nearly impossible to replace.

Somehow the blonde telepath seemed different.

When she had first exited the portal, he hadn’t had time to closely examine her – his vampire instincts had easily overridden his logic as her enhanced fairy scent had assaulted his nose. Then when he had scented his deceased Maker, internally speaking, all hell had broken loose.

His reaction had been immediate, instinctive. While he was ashamed now that he had most likely frightened her, he was also glad that she was still standing.

A vampire Child’s inherent need for their Maker was indescribable. It was hardwired into their own survival and only death or the Maker could sever that Maker/Child bond. When the progeny genuinely adored the one who had Turned and raised them, that tie, that bond, was exponentially more fundamental.

The knowledge that somehow, somewhere, Godric yet lived threatened to overwhelm Eric once again, and he firmly decided to revel in this fact later.

For now, as he stood in her home, he chose to observe Sookie in hopes of pinpointing the change he sensed in her.

And then he realized that the change he was looking for was actually in himself.

He tucked Godric’s precious letter into his back pocket, and silently approached.

She turned around when she heard him coming closer, and gasped when he gently took her hands to lift her arms away from her body. Strong remorse clouded his features as he gazed at the bruises he had left.

He bowed his head and seemed to watch as he smoothed his thumbs over the backs of her hands. When he raised his head to meet her eyes, his face remained serious, and surprisingly miserable.

“I’m sorry.”

This was not what Sookie expected, and she wasn’t sure what to make of it. For once it didn’t feel as though he had a hidden agenda for making this apology.

“I…um, it’s ok. It’s not bad and I heal pretty fast these days anyway.”

“That’s not the point,” he replied sadly.

Feeling as though she was taking a huge risk, Sookie slid her arms out of his grasp until she could take his hands in her own.

“Eric, I understand. It’s Godric.” She squeezed his hands and let go. She truly wasn’t sure how to handle a sweet, honest Eric.  “Now, go get cleaned up and read his letter. I know you’re dyin’ to.”

A brief smile crossed his lips. He very gently took her face in his hands, and was shocked that she let him.  He leaned down and kissed her forehead.

“I’m sorry,” he repeated against her warm, scented skin before turning and going to the bathroom.

When he came out of the bathroom a few minutes later, face cleaned and resolve strengthened, he was sad but not surprised to see that Sookie had left.

What did surprise him was that she’d left her phone number scrawled on a notepad placed on the coffee table where he was sure to see it.

Wisely he recognized it for the boon it was – a monumental step in the right direction.

Heart and spirit both lighter, he withdrew his Maker’s letter, sat down on the horrendous sofa, and read.

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**A/N:  Ok, so, it was slow-ish growth… but hey, that counts, too, right?  What did you think?**

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55 thoughts on “Sookie Takes Charge, Ch. 10

  1. Pingback: STC, Ch. 10 | Addicted to Godric…& Eric…& Andre

  2. Very nice. Looks like they are both beginning to see the real person in front of them. I sure want to know what Godric said in the letter.

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  3. Miserable thing that empathy is… 😉 glad Sookie found some though, can’t go holding on to that grudge for eternity. An Eric who owns up to his mistakes is also extremely refrfeshing… Short but sweet!

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  4. So you don’t subscribe to the Adele-is-a-saint club in this story huh? Sookie is more cynical/bitter than most but she appears to be more honest with herself – much better than book Sookie who reserved all that for just Eric!
    I can’t wait to see what that letter says – I hope you’ll be sharing that soon.

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  5. Baby steps. Baby steps are good. Any steps are good!!!! Well, any steps of the forward variety anyway lol.

    Hmm Eric… growing up? Sookie letting go?

    *Faints*

    😜

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  6. I’m glad that you are pinpointing to the double-faced criature that was her grandmother. Slowly going to develop a true relationship between Eric and Sookie.

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  7. murgatroid98: You’re right – they’re both slowly shedding their previous/first/unrealistic impressions and finally starting to take the chance to see who that other person really is. 😀

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  8. hisviks: Empathy sucks unless that other person is all happy and shit… 😀 Sookie holds a good grudge, but she’s also not mean-spirited, so that will help her (and Eric). And Eric…Eric’s no pushover, but he does know how to change and adapt his ways of thinking, so that will help him, too. Thanks!

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  9. shoegirl01: I have to admit – it’s been a very, very long time since I bought into that “Adele is a long-suffering saint” crap. Usually I just ignore her for the waste of space that she is, but in this story, yeah, she’s part of the problem that caused Sookie’s emotional pendulum to swing a little too far out. And you’re right – Sookie is bitter and cynical, and with good reason, but part of her story “path” is learning how to change the things you can, and let go of the things you can’t. Now for some wisdom to tell the difference… 😀

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  10. lilloucfer: It is! I can’t guarantee they’ll have smooth sailing from this point out, but at least they’re in the same book (if not on the same page yet). 😀

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  11. galwidanatitud: (*evil grin*) What letter? There’s a letter? Where??? *snicker* Lol, it’ll probably be in the next chapter if not the one after…but that’s ONLY if Eric decides to share it with us…and you know how he can be… 😀

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  12. gwynwyvar: LOL – true: at least their steps ARE in the direction of forward! 😀 They may not be on the same page yet, but at least they’re finally in the same book… *hurriedly tosses pillows for you to land on*

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  13. cari1973: Yes – thank you!! I can’t stand Adele. While I’m portraying her meaner in this story than I actually ‘see’ her, still, to me she’s definitely a hypocrite who could have done so many things differently. And yup, with this Eric and Sookie, slow and steady will win that race! 😀

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  14. carletticlaudio2014jackie69: Exactly – they’ve never had a chance to become friends first, and they really do need that “getting to know ya” period. Letter? What letter? There’s a letter? *scans desk* I don’t see a… *evilsnickergrin* 😀

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  15. Any forward progress is good at this point! Sookie left him her # so that’s a good thing. And even if she is still really really pissed about the whole Russell debacle, she is softening towards him. I just know it. Now I think we need to know what is in that letter. Cause I think it’s gonna be a doozy!

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  16. Great chapter 😉 …gotta love a Sookie that is actually honest with herself and has lost those rose colored glasses and Eric that just might see he isn’t always right…

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  17. I too want to know what Godric wrote. Also like that Eric and Sookie are actually speaking and not yelling or ignoring each other. Their real feelings are starting to emerge.

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  18. Oh my! Maturity rears its ugly head! Say it ain’t so! LOL! Great chapter, and dare I say you may be on to something with this character growth? 🙂

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  19. missingjasamalways: Yes! Sookie is still pretty pissed about how Eric treated her during the Russell thing, but it’s definitely time for that pendulum to swing back toward a more normal setting now.

    Oh, letter? There’s a letter?? 😉

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  20. suzyq591suzy: 😀 It’s great being able to show them hitting that turning point “back” to each other.

    In this story, Sookie not only has a much clearer view of Adele, but (again, in this story) more of Adele’s hypocritical nature is being shown. She knew that Sookie had an “extra something” about her, that she was telepathic, yet she never bothered telling Sookie how that came about, that she was the product of an illicit and on-going affair where she (Mrs. Holier-Than-Thou) cheated repeated on her husband with a part-Fairy man. That information would have helped Sookie understand her nature more, and would have made the little girl she had been feel a lot more at home in her skin. This Adele mainly took her grandchildren in just so she wouldn’t lose face with her all-important “church friends”. It’s going to take Sookie a while to get over her hurt and disillusionment so that she can realize that her grandmother truly did love her in her own way, but that she was just as human as anyone else and therefore just as prone to making mistakes and bad decisions.

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  21. charity6201: Thank you! They are definitely seeing that not only are they not perfect, but that perhaps their vision of who they, themselves, are needs a bit of adjustment, too. It’ll all even out in the end, though. 😀

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  22. The Queen of All: It’s time (finally!) for them to start really seeing each other – and themselves, too. And…letter? What letter? There’s a letter? Where?? 😉

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  23. galwidanatitud: You shouldn’t have said that. Now Eric and Godric are both looking at me with that look in their eyes… Oh, well, I guess I’ll just have to take one for the team… Oh, woe is me… *sideways glance*

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  24. gyllene: I’m STILL in shock about how both The Twit and The Powers That Sucked all decided to de-ball Eric and stupidify (is too a word) Sookie. They all should be arrested for character assignation and/or murder (whichever sounds strongest). But at least we have some awesome writers (I’m lookin’ at you) fixing their royal fuck-ups, so that’s a good thing.

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  25. suzyq591suzy: Me too! I want to see that character growth; granted I don’t want any of them to start out as assholes or otherwise horrible people, but yeah, I like to see that they’re almost as fallible as any real person might be.

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  26. With these two, any is huge!! Great job on them both!!! On showcasing his good and bad for the relevant person to acknowledge. And that damn plot keeps trying to raise his head for the Dallas story. No!!!

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