My Thoughts on Ericizmine’s Passing

 My thoughts on Angela’s passing (there will be cursing):

While I was not fortunate enough to have been one of Angela’s besties during her short life, we did chat some, and I definitely devoured the fuck out of her stories.  One of the things I picked up about her – from both sources – is that she would NOT tolerate anyone being a sniveling, snotty mess over her passing, not for very long at any rate.

Grieve?  Sure, and I believe she’d be the first to pass out back-breaking hugs and I can’t think she’d have had a problem with us all gettin’ our magnificent squall on for a day…maybe even two.  I do think she’d tell us to go get our own Kleenexes, though, and to pick up after ourselves…

But then I FIRMLY believe she’d go all Erica Weiss on our collective snotty noses and cryin’ asses and tell us to knock it the fuck off, that life goes on for the living, and that we owe it to ourselves, our kids if we have them, and hell, even our fucking pets, to just get on with it.

I can just see (read) her saying that yeah, she may be visiting all those fuckawesome ‘verses in the sky, that she’s ‘skipping’ like NOBODY’s fucking business now, but that we who are stuck in the earthly realms just need to knock it the fuck off, get over it, and, yeah, she would repeat:  get on with it.

I adore (present tense, btw, cause it ain’t going to stop) how she shows her Sookies and her Erics overcoming so many problems, trials, hardships and bullshittery – how in her stories she shows them getting their backbone out, straightening it up, dipping it in steel, then getting their lives in order.  I love how she shows us that yeah, life can suck balls, but whether we overcome it, or not, is all in our attitude and willingness to kick ass – sometimes our own ass – but that perseverance (and a lot of Red Bull and cursing) will win the day.

She gives us hope.

That girl-crush I have on her – and the crush I have on about half of her characters?  (My God, the woman is such an amazing writer that she made me have a crush on Wallace!  And her Erics??  Ohhh yeah….  She definitely knows her Erics and her Sookies… and her Gawains… and her Edwards and her Richards… and her Tysons… and her Matas… wait, where was I?)

Oh, yeah, my girlie crushes aren’t going to stop any time soon, at least not because she left this realm way too damn early.  I seriously love thinking that she’s off on Multiverse adventures of her own, that she’s ‘skipping’ all over the fucking place having the time of her now eternal life.

(Ok, I may also have a huge dream that a certain 6′ 5″ blond Viking vamp caught her in the nick of time, and that she’s about finished with the turning phase and that she’s going to make one HELL of a baby vamp…but that’s for another story…)

Anyway, I’m going to give her, and me, one last humongous ugly-cry (yeah, I have the complexion of a red head and dude, we cry UGLY), and it’s going to be nasty.  I will probably scare the crap out of both cats, and the little doggie, too.

Then I’m going to get my shit together.  I’m going to knock it the fuck off, pick up my pen (keyboard) and get back to writing,  washing the dishes, sweeping, vacuuming, cuddling the cats and dog, planning my bill list, going to work, cooking dinner, dusting…yeah, let’s not go that far…  And if another couple of tears (or hundreds *elegant shrug*) should still happen to fall, I’m going to ignore them and go about my merry fucking way… until I start jonesing for a new chapter of a ‘verse story and then get hit once again with the knowledge that this is all there is, that this is all there will ever be of these amazing stories.  At that point I don’t think anyone would mind if I crawled in my bed and hid for the rest of the day with a box of tissues.

And then I will rise up the next morning and kick my world into submission once again.

Meanwhile I’m going to pretend that I don’t feel this huge fucking hole in my heart until it magically disappears, whenever the hell that might happen.

Why?

I really don’t want Angela to sic Intrepid’s Erica fucking Weiss on my ass from the Realms of the Great Multiverse in the Sky.   Erica scares me…   ♥

Favorite quote:  From Eric, written to Sookie, Intrepid, Chapter 5: Erica Weiss:

You aren’t allowed to let the actions of others define who you are or what you’re capable of. Yes, you’ve been victimized, and you have every right to do whatever you need to do in order to move past that, but do move past it. Turn the page. Keep going. Learn from your struggles and villains, and then leave them behind you as you become the heroine of your own story, rather than a victim in someone else’s.

Ericizmine – so many stories left unfinished, so many stories left untold. 

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37 thoughts on “My Thoughts on Ericizmine’s Passing

  1. wow….that was beautifull …..i never new angela personally…..i only knew her to chat about her wonderful stories…she was a fb friend. i found saints and sinners one day a few years ago maybe and read it…her writing was so addicting…her style was all her own…i loved her humor and her imagination..i recommended her stories to many people who felt the same way..my heart goes out to her family and friends..and i feel deeply saddened that i’m never going to read a new story of hers….in her honor i am going to her site and read all stories again. i will never forget how talented she was and how great she was to share that talent with lots of people she didn’t even know…..ellie

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  2. Wonderfully said. The news of her passing has been hitting me all day and I honestly didn’t know how much she meant to me until now. I wasn’t as close to her as a lot of people, but EricIzMine helped me a lot. I just wished I had the chance to tell her that.

    It’s such a sad loss. She was far too young to leave us. I will miss her. The fandom won’t be the same without her. I keep waiting for that next skip. But now Angela is on the biggest one of all.

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  3. To queenofareafive: Thank you! I know what you mean. The effects of her passing are so far-reaching, and when I think of her kids and her stories and how she now can’t “complete” either one, it breaks my heart.

    “I keep waiting for that next skip. But now Angela is on the biggest one of all.” – Perfect!

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  4. Everytime I think I am done crying I read something else and start all over again. If Angela cannot be with us I do hope she is on one hellova skip. Maybe she has landed in a world of all Eric’s. Your words are perfect! *reaches for another tissue*

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  5. To vikinggirlji: Thank you! I That’s me – I just know that I’m done, that I’m getting more towards ok, then…bam…more tears. *holds out box of tissues*

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  6. Well written!! I will miss her enthusiasm for the community & her writing. Your words convey all our feelings.

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  7. I didn’t see this when you posted it. It is sad and uplifting at the same time. I still go to her blog and pick one of my favorites and re-read again. She was a very talented lady and will always be missed.

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  8. valady1: Thank you. About six months after her passing I was able to do a reread, but haven’t been able to do it again since then, not yet. It’s a shame for us that she was taken so soon, but I totally envision her living out and creating her own Braid, though. She was a sweet, brilliant lady taken far too soon, but at least we were able to bask in her glow for a little while.

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